Constructing a New List
I don’t feel well today. I woke up with a stuffy head and my energy zapped. I’m exhausted. But, I cannot be sick today. This is the one day all week that I have time to buckle down and get some real work done. I have a list.
- Change the sheets.
- Balance the budget.
- Clean the vacuum filter.
It’s all there on my list. And I can barely sit in this chair long enough to type a few words. Words that don’t want to gel together in my head or on my screen.
My body is saying one thing but I am not in the mood to hear it. I have plans and they don’t include anything about this head cold. Doesn’t my body know: I have a list!
But, then, there is a voice—just audible over the demands of that list. It’s asking where I am on that list. Wondering if I really will notice me. Questioning whether I am sincere when I say I will show up for myself.
Even through the fog in my head, I know what I will answer. Some days, the very best way to take care of myself will be with a to do list, and the rush that comes from flying through it. But, my body is telling me that that is not today.
So, I will modify my list. The vacuum filter and the workout will wait.
Today’s new list:
- Eat a warm bowl of soup for breakfast because that’s what sounds good to my aching head.
- Crawl right back in bed after I put the kids on the bus.
Today, my task will be to be gentle with myself. It will be trust that I will get to the List another day. And that this is enough.